I was on OKCupid yesterday, bored as hell, reading forum topics. I stumbled upon a posting under "Confessions" that read:

I miss holding a woman close at night,
listening to the sound of her breathing,
smelling her hair,
and watching her sleep peacefully,
in her most angelic and beautiful state.
The feel of the soft skin of her neck on my
lips when i give one final kiss before falling
into blissful sleep...
i don't think there's any better feeling in the world.

I wish more men felt that way. Or at least admitted to feeling that way.


I had a conversation today, that I don't think went very well. I thought that when you loved someone, even after they didn't treat you just right, you could be friends and not be angry. But apparently I was wrong.

I'm still angry, and maybe even more so now. I want to move on and trust people again, and because of our past issues I can't. I am probably screwing up something really great because you hurt me so much that I am afraid this new person will too. How many times in my life have I passed up the nice guy because I found the bad boy more appealing? How many more times will I put myself through this? At which point will I learn, for MYSELF, that I deserve better and that it's ok to trust someone until they give you reason not to? All men are not created equal, and when I realize that for myself, I won't have to wait for or expect someone to prove it to me.

Because that's just not fair to the nice guy who's trying not to finish last.